Falling in Love With The One I Can't See Anymore

Trust me it really hurts until now, shame on me. I never said it'll be easy, cause everything is easier to said than done. I can feel the burden of my heart every day, it feels like i can move on but still doesn't understand why i deserved all of these pains. Life is so unfair, for real. I try not think like that, but once again, trust me, if you were me, you'll understand. It's really hurt, physically, not only mentally. He is the one that caused my wounds, and i try to forget that,  but turns out a burden in my heart. I want to scream like nobody else can. I want to sing aloud my voice in the ocean. I want to go away and people to unknown me. I want to write him a song, a sweet sweet song so that he remember i ever loved him that much. I loved him from deep down in my heart. Never in a day without loving him in my mind, in fact i can't meet him and it's really killing me. Even before we end, i really love him. I accept all of him. God knows the truth, God knows my heart towards him, God heard my prayers for him. Why can't good thing(s) just stay with me? He said it's his time to change, why can't he change with me? Why should end? I still don't understand. I can't say anything though now, what else can i say.

He is not the one who's changing now, everyone does. Me too. Maybe it's not the real reason why he ended. For me it's a weak reason. It doesn't make sense, for two person that in love. That's okay, I just wish he really said the truth but oh well I have to accept. Like everyone says these days, It Is What It Is.