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Trust me it really hurts until now, shame on me. I never said it'll be easy, cause everything is easier to said than done. I can feel the burden of my heart every day, it feels like i can move on but still doesn't understand why i deserved all of these pains. Life is so unfair, for real. I try not think like that, but once again, trust me, if you were me, you'll understand. It's really hurt, physically, not only mentally. He is the one that caused my wounds, and i try to forget that,  but turns out a burden in my heart. I want to scream like nobody else can. I want to sing aloud my voice in the ocean. I want to go away and people to unknown me. I want to write him a song, a sweet sweet song so that he remember i ever loved him that much. I loved him from deep down in my heart. Never in a day without loving him in my mind, in fact i can't meet him and it's really killing me. Even before we end, i really love him. I accept all of him. God knows the truth, God kno...

Ada satu waktu di mana, aku tau aku telah kehilangan dia. Itu sebelum dia minta udahan. Waktu itu hanya bisa senyum dan nahan sakit yang aku rasa.

Aku bener-bener mau nulis tapi bingung harus mulai dari mana. Gak gampang nuangin semua yang ada di otakku karena sesungguhnya gak ada yang bisa benar-benar menggambarkan pikiran dan perasaanku sekarang. Aku yakin kalau pikiran dan perasaan bisa punya warna, mereka sudah hitam.